Not today Satan

Let's talk about this morning. I woke up! Probably the most adulty thing I am going to do all day. I had my coffee because its pumpkin spice time after all. Got Rosalie up and off we went to the great shit hole in the city of Syracuse. I call it the DSS building because I think that's what most people do there.

I haven't been working since August 15 and I have been nursing my last paycheck so I took my happy rear and my child's happy rear down there to see if we qualified for any assistance just until I get my first check from my new job. I had to go down to that building anyway for the paternity results anyway so why not? Two hours and no help later we dragged ourselves up to the 4th floor to get our test results. The winner is...

Not me y'all. I didn't expect it to turn in my favor, not much in life has been in my favor. Regardless my child is happy and my child's father is incredibly happy. *Again this is what the margaritas are for* I don't even know what this means moving forward. There are so many things to think about so I guess I should get thinking. I'm relatively smart and resourceful.

I feel like I should be singing I will survive with my wine glass in hand, messy bun on my head, sweats except as a mom you have to keep going. Daycare needs to be taken care of I've hardly back to school shopped and I'm behind about 3 months in car payments. Come to find out today my finger prints for my new job have not been processed and if it's going to take much longer I'm going to be in more trouble.

To cope with my anxiety and depression I'm off to bake about 100 cupcakes or sit on the floor and eat the batter from the bowl. Much love <3