I am mom. Here me roar!

I have been sitting here for well over an hour figure out how to start this and how to write it well. In reality this post will probably be a crazy mess, much like my life. Here it goes...

I do not know who my daughter's father is! There you go I have said it and I may have said it in my own little world where I am the only one reading this but it feels better than keeping it inside. For most of you I am sure you are wondering how do you not know who the father of your child is unless... GASP!!!!!!

You have slept with more than one person. And within a small time frame. Well friends that is accurate. Before anyone goes and points fingers or gets nasty you better be a damn saint. *Seriously if you are hit me up because I could absolutely use you right now.*

This is true everyone! I mean we are talking probably a weeks difference. What can you expect when you get out of the military and move all the way across the country and you can't really bring that other person with you because well you know... It's just not like that.

Anyway, after 5 years of keeping my child to myself because what do you do when after sleeping with someone one time they tell you I can't take care of myself let alone a family. I told the person local to me he may be the father. When I went to the doctor for my first appointment she approximated the date of conception to be closer to him than the other fellow. I went with it why not. Maybe after five years this guy has grown up and has his shit together. *Side note: I don't have my shit together either but like this is a whole different level. Uhm... I WAS SO WRONG!

Present day... well tomorrow we are going to find out via a wonderful thing called a paternity test who my lady's father is. Everyone its a 50/50 shot at either one of these guys. They are so absolutely different from each other. My child is very aware of what is happening and knows what tomorrow means for everyone. I want what is best for her and I know that that is what the results will give us. While I may not get what I want * that's what margaritas and friends are for* we will get what she needs. We will survive, we will move on and we will be better than ever.

This is me people take me or leave me. We are all human and we all make mistakes. Once the morning is over I'll be moving on to cupcakes and starting a new job! Ekkk stay tuned to find out how that goes.